Ginia's: 2010

The glass and me.

Once i broke a glass , there were cracks in the glass

I cried and starring at the glass

But I have decided to destroy it

Because i just don't want have a memories of it

I'm doing this for my self, protecting my self

I'm sorry if that hurt you

But once there was a crack then the glass would not be the same again.

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world, to me

A woman left lonely will soon grow tired of waiting,
She'll do crazy things, yeah, on lonely occasions.
A simple conversation for the new men now and again
Makes a touchy situation when a good face come into your head.
And when she gets lonely, she's thinking 'bout her man,
She knows he's taking her for granted, yeah yeah,
Honey, she doesn't understand, no no no no!
Well, the fevers of the night, they burn an unloved woman
Yeah, those red-hot flames try to push old love aside.
A woman left lonely, she's the victim of her man, yes she is.
When he can't keep up his own way, good Lord,
She's got to do the best that she can, yeah!
A woman left lonely, Lord, that lonely girl,
Lord, Lord, Lord!

-Janis Joplin

March wish

halo. aduh maaf ya emang terlambat banget-_-

tapi gue mau mengungkapkan harapan kecil gue di bulan maret :

semoga long weekend dan holiday ini bisa gue habiskan sama orang yang gue sayang
gue berharap gue ngga bimbang lagi, bisa ngambil keputusan yang benar
dan, semoga.............. kebahagiaan yang gue rasain sekarang ngga berenti sampai bulan ini aja

happy long weekend guys , semoga anak kelas 12 diberkahi ujiannya, amin :')

hey. kamu yang disana.

aku cuma mau bilang.

Gue - Cuman - Mau - Di - DENGAR

march video's :D

yeah guys, semalem gue abis nonton full ! emang agak bb 17+ cuman yaaaa ini keren banget sumpah lo pada harus nonton , tapi saran gue....... gunakan koneksi yang bagus, karena gue nonton video berdurasi 09:22 ini perlu buffer satu jam, mungkin lebih-_- oh bisa sambil karaoke nih gue kasih liriknya (panjang tapi-_-) enjoy it while fresh from the oven :D !

Hello, hello, baby;
You called, I can't hear a thing.
I have got no service
in the club, you see, see…
Wha-Wha-What did you say?
Oh, you're breaking up on me…
Sorry, I cannot hear you,
I'm kinda busy.

K-kinda busy
K-kinda busy
Sorry, I cannot hear you, I'm kinda busy.

Just a second,
it's my favorite song they're gonna play
And I cannot text you with
a drink in my hand, eh…
You shoulda made some plans with me,
you knew that I was free.
And now you won't stop calling me;
I'm kinda busy.

Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna think anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna talk anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
I'm busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…

Can call all you want,
but there's no one home,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!
Out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but there's no one home,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!
Out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Beyonce:

Boy, the way you blowin' up my phone
won't make me leave no faster.
Put my coat on faster,
leave my girls no faster.
I shoulda left my phone at home,
'cause this is a disaster!
Callin' like a collector -
sorry, I cannot answer!

Not that I don't like you,
I'm just at a party.
And I am sick and tired
of my phone r-ringing.
Sometimes I feel like
I live in Grand Central Station.
Tonight I'm not takin' no calls,
'cause I'll be dancin'.

'Cause I'll be dancin'
'Cause I'll be dancin'
Tonight I'm not takin' no calls, 'cause I'll be dancin'!

Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna think anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna talk anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.

Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna think anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin', stop callin',
I don't wanna talk anymore!
I left my hand and my heart on the dance floor.

Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
I'm busy!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…
Stop telephonin' me!
Eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh…

Can call all you want,
but there's no one home,
you're not gonna reach my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Call when you want,
but there's no one home,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

My telephone!
M-m-my telephone!
'Cause I'm out in the club,
and I'm sippin' that bub,
and you're not gonna reach my telephone!

Only when we want is not

A compromise

I'll be pouring tears

Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing

There can only be one

Friends, lovers, or nothing

We'll never be an in-between

So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"

Cause your two drinks in

But in the morning I will say

Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into

The jealous game

The streets will flood

With blood of those who felt the same

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't

Let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you

just, another day.

halo halo saya baru pulang hari ini dari citos dari my lovely S, today kita nonton :

yep dan gue sama my baby S ft issoi , tasha dan puput temannya. sebenernya gue ketemu sama feny tapi ternyata......kita tidak tegur sapa :

feny says:

*adaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. yg lg nelpon bukan sih?

*waktu gue masuk, ada yg pake baju putih terus lg nelpon blg "iya ma ini di citos"

*gue pake baju putih +kacamata lg nungguin tmn gue di toilet plg pojok

*mau nyapa takut salah -,-

Pinia says:

*IYA

*ITU GUE-_____-

*........

*kayanya gue melihat elo

*tapi gue ngga ngeh

*..............

*jadi.....kita bertemu tanpa tegur sapa

*(lebay)

feny says:

*hahahahahhaha

*lain kali deh pin -..-

oke itu sangat disayangkan-_- skip to the movie. sebenernya gue ngga bilang filmnya jelek, cuman yaaa mungkin karena gue belom melihat "wow" dari film ini. cuman yaaa mungkin lumayan keren kok, cuman agak aneh kali ya gue liat anna hathaway kaya gitu mungkin ahaha tapi gue suka banget sama queen red nya :

sumpah kocak banget apalagi omongannya yang paling gue suka : off their head! sama i need my piggy now! HUAHAHAHA sumpah lucu banget dan gue suka banget itu mehehe :3

oh ya, fotonya hari ini kurang memuaskan, si rince salah mencet jadilah foto box nya tatat -,- but yeah i love this day thankyou my S muchywuchy unyuuu :3

Who knows how long I've loved you

You know I love you still

Will I wait a lonely lifetime

If you want me to, I will.

For if I ever saw you

I didn't catch your name

But it never really mattered

I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart.

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For the things you do endear you to me

Oh, you know, I will

I will.

Blair Waldorf

halo halo teman blog tau dia kan ? tau kan? leighton meester ! yeah baby leighton meester adalah aktris yang gue banget rasanya, lucu ya dia mirip gue gitu ^,^ (skip)

gue suka banget sama dia walaupun dia itu agak berbeda sama gue tapi gatau kenapa gue suka banget sama dia , dari awal dia di Gossip Girl gue suka aja sama gayanya dia, dia kalau jahat ngga setengah setengah, dan gue belajar dari "Blair" kalau misalnya kalau gasuka sama orang itu ya blackmail aja MUAHAHA gue suka banget cara dia berfikir, dan karena dia harus nunjukin ke ortunya dia bisa, dia jadi ada cara tersendiri buat menyelesaikan masalahnya. uuuyeah keren sekali :*

oh! dan soal stylenya dia , walaupun ngga keren keren amat :

karena si arince sukanya sama serena, ya pas lah kita berdua juga completing each other, yagak rin? we're just like this :

Nah, ga sabar gue nungguin besok, soalnya B dan S udah lama ngga memakai quality time together nya bersama, See you there for alice in wonderland S!

When your feeling lost in the night,

When you feel your world’ just ain’t right,

Call on me, I will be waiting

Count on me, I wll be here

Anytime the times get too tough,

Anytime your best ain’t enough

I’ll be the one to mak it beter,

I’ll be there to protect you,

See you through,

I’ll be there and there is nothing

I won’t do

I will cross the ocean for you

I will go and bring you the moon

I will be your hero your strengh

Anything you need

I will be the sun in your sky

I will light your way for all time

Promise you, For you I will

Is it wise enough to say

That I'm better off without you

Is it cool enough to fake

'cause all that I've been breathing is about you

Is it wise enough to flow (flowing down)

From the head until my toes

But somehow I don't really know

All that I've been doing is without you

Way Back Into Love

ah gue terlihat hopeless ? entah lah man, gua baik baik saja sih sepertinya yang penting gue sudah tidak trauma lagi (sepertinya) dan gue sudah menemukan bahwa :

hidup menyenangkan disaat single, banyak teman yang sayang sama gue. kalau mereka ga ada, masih ada diri sendiri yang sayang sama gue.

oke. itu lebay. tau deh gue lagi labil, atau gimana yang pasti gue bukan abege labil yang bztbzt gitudeh, anyway, sesuai judul, gue lagi suka lagu ini. lagu ini dari jaman gue smp kelas 9 kalo ga salah. ini lagunya gue banget uhuy

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

P.S : B, baca ya liriknya-,-

Valentine's day on 2010

Hell-oow people ! happy valentine's and imlek ya people! bagi yang merayakan jangan lupa kasih gue angpao, gausah pake coklat juga gapapa hahahaha okay skip

Berhubung gue adalah salah satu yang tidak merayakan , gue bermain dirumahnya nori aja, sekalian kita ketemu buat mengingat tahun lalu gitulah, and benar aja tahun lalu emang sangat sangat sangat berkesan , gue kangen sama tahun lalu kita sampai lengkap banget terus ada kejadian yang so sweeeeeeeeeeet banget ga nahan dehdehdeh yang gue sampe iri mupeng gajelas kapan gue bisa kaya gitu ya? skip.

Akhirnya kita ketemuan, karena gue terlambat otomatis gue bakalan kena omel dan gue hampir dilempar pake hoolahoop plus gue dikunciin diluar kamar, PADAHAL ada arin yang jauh lebih telat dari gue -_____- tega kalian -,- terus ternyata we're minus two :( tanpa ulul dan dyza , huaaah padahal kalau ada mereka pasti kita bakalan bikin fashion emergency versi vals day 2010 -.-'

Oh iya , buat opening awalnya kita mau kasih congratulation buat one of six girls yang sudah tidak single ladies lagi :

Congratulation askarina bintari 10-02-2010 ;)

semoga aja longlasting sama si pacar ngga putus dan doakan teman mu ini segera menyusul dan menyandang status in a relationship with . . . . . -.-'

Nori juga! ayo buruan susul arin! gue mendukung lo dan si calon koook ;) pokoknya yang mau jadian diantara kita ber-6 pasti didukung kok :D

okay. setelah gosip berbahagia dan gue menceritakan soal foto frontal yang ada di fb gue (cari aja silahkan yang nemu hebat-_-) NAH akhirnya jam menunjukan jam makan siang tadinya kan mau pada bikin chocolate tapi NGGA JADI karena pada males -.-' akhirnya kita mesen bakmi langgara. udah kan tuh makan dikamarnya nori sambil nonton glee.

sambil gosip segala macam akhirnya sejam baru berlalu , dan ASAL-KALIAN-TAU kita delivery mcd. mau tau apa aja? nih:

a. dua kentang goreng medium

b. dua double cheese burger

c. dua mcflurry milo

d. dua ..... gue lupa pokoknya minuman.

ho-oh gasampe sejam udah delivery mcd. bayangin gue aja mau muntah eh si nori malahan masih lapar-_______- saiko kan dia -,- pas pembayaran juga cengar cengir aja kerjaannya-,-

lalu gak lama kita pulang terus gue bareng sama si arin sampe portal hek gitu and-you-know-what-gue-makan-lagi-sama-ortunya-arin -__- so total gue makan 3x dengan jam yang tidak terlalu jauh. yaitu : bakmi ayam pangsit - mcd - dan mi ayam baksa. OH MY! dan akhirnya, satu kalimat dari saya sebelum X.O.X.O adalah :

If valentine's day does exist for us, it means love. love means you, you means Nori Hesviandani , Askarina Bintari S, Aussie Aulia Siwi , Gladyza Putri Vanska, Ulul Azmi Handayani ♥♥♥♥

February's video ;)

I don't know but...
I think I maybe, fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should, keep this to myself

Waiting 'til I, know you better
I am trying, not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding,what I'm feeeling..
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my..time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
and now i found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm falling for you...
I'm falling for you...

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
and we start to dance

All around us, I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me
I'm trying, not to tell you..
But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding, what I'm feeeling...
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my.. time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think i'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life
And now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you...
I'm fallin' for you...

Ooh, I just can't take it..
My heart is racing..
Emotions keep spinning out...

I've been spending all my.. time
just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think i'm fallin' for you ;)

Trauma

-to the point-

Gue mau lari, gue ngga sanggup lagi

Gue mau udahan,

Gue mau hidup gue yang lama balik lagi.

Bahkan sebenernya gue ga tau mau nulis apa buat ngungkapin gue mau berhenti sekarang juga

Gue mau gue bisa milih memori yang ada di fikiran gue,

Soalnya gue tau

Kita bukan bulan dan bumi yang saling mengitari satu sama lain

Kita bukan api dan air yang bisa saling menguatkan atau mematikan

Kita juga bukan irama dan musik yang membuat diri kita lebih indah

Kita bukan prince princess fairy tale yang happily ever after

Tapi setelah gue fikir kita udah jaga jarak banget gini, kadang gue ngerasa

Gue seperti cinderella tanpa sepatu kaca

Gue seperti cuaca panas tanpa angin

Gue terlihat seperti bintang disiang hari tanpa sinar

Memang ngga terlalu penting tapi kalau ada lo everything's complete.

Gue butuh orang lain yang bisa nolongin gue dari ini.

Please ;(

for an optimistic, i'm pretty pessimist

I blamed my self for everything happened

And when we're be separated , just remember

I'm here if you changing your mind

And i don't care if that day took a long time

Well maybe i'll wait.

For everything that happened between us, and everything might happen in future

-cusimia and fasiam

Yeah, that was me.

Halo bloggy! aneh ya aneh judul gue? bodolah-_-

So today adalah si TGI-Friday so yeah "happy friday" people :DD

Mungkin ini salah satu post ngga bermutu gue, atau bisa dibilang isi blog gue emang ga bermutu-_-

Cuman gue lagi kepengen mengungkapkan apa yang gue rasain akhir akhir ini

Ya jujur aja, kalau dari lanjutan postingan in a relationship gue, masih kerasa banget sampe sekarang.

Jadi itu juga udah bukan masalah besar banget buat gue

I just keep going and didn't look back at all karena yaaaa buat apa menengok ke masa masa yang bikin sedih, apalah.

Tapi ya yang namanya kenangan itu kan enaknya ya dikenang

Pas gue udah nikah terus punya anak ntar cerita deh:

"mama tuh dulu blablabla makanya kamu tuh kan udah gede jadinya blablabla"

Hea berasa iya aja gue jadi orangtua begitu-__-

Sekarang juga gue tinggal jalanin aja deh tuh apa yang gue ngerasa ngga pas di hidup gue

Mau dari bagian yang mana juga tetep gue harus jalanin kan

Bersyukur aja apa yang dikasih sama Allah gue tinggal ngejalanin apa yang gue bisa aja

Gue gatau kenapa jadi dapet pencerahan kaya gini,

Setelah semalem gue memutuskan buat meninggalkan apa yang gue jadikan beban selama ini

Gue lebih memilih bersyukur yang banyak, soalnya gue diselamatkan dari bahaya itu udah banyak banget

Emang gue belum tau kenapa gue diselamatkan dari begitu banyak bencana besar, salah satunya tsunami 2004 waktu itu

Padahal kalo dipikir pikir gue ga ada gunanya hidup cuman bikin dosa doang-.-

Yeah, kalo kata my baby norhes everything came for a reason :')

Jadi yasudah lah, pasti ada maksudnya kenapa gue dijauhkan dari apa yang bener bener gue inginkan.

Alasan YAPS pindah ke kalimantan, gue cuman jadi partner kerja sama PDYP, dan gue ngga dibiarin baikan lagi sama baba. Pasti semuanya ada alasannya, simpel tapi kadang gue gamau ngerti karena gue egois. SANGAT egois.

Okeh oke sekip. Sekarang gue agak bingung mau kemana , kayanya mau bareng si sheila novka ke soedirman tapi entahlah-_- gue mau kerumahnya kania juga soalnya cuman agak males karen ya gitu lah , cuman kayanya gue tetep mau ke soedirman terus kerumahnya kania. Gue ngga ngerti akun dan matematika huaaaaaaa :'(((((((((

Makin kesini kayanya gue makin perlu belajar , otak gue udah lama ga dipake, perasaan mulu heum (kan kumat--') gue harus balik kaya waktu sd lagi, harus ranking lagi, harus rajin ngafalin buku lagi heaaa B-) . blog you later ya baby si sheila novka sudah menelfon saya jadi yaaa mau siap siap :DDD

Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby~

Oke gue gatau gue kenapa -__-' pas gue kemarin sendirian dirumah tuh ya tau tau gue ngebuka youtube dan ngga sengaja gue ngesearch "SNSD" bagi yang gatau search sendiri aja ya-_- terus gue baru sadar kalau dia itu featuring sama Super Junior, ituloh yang kata orang maho maho tapi menurut gue ngga, mereka kocak apalagi si dong hae plus ki bum itu ganteng. (baca: KI BUM bukan kimbum) nah lagunya juga lucu deh ada subtitle nya :

lucu kan lucu kan? hueheu gue mau kurus ah biar bisa nari kaya gitu(?) -_-'

Cinta Tanpa Mata

Boredom merasuki gue. mungkin karena gue cabut hari ini jadi ga banyak yang bisa gue lakukan dirumah, terus ya terus gue senin sama rabu LIBUR, bayangin guys saya senang holiday geu nambaaah~ dan youknowwhat? gue sarapan jam berapa dan sekarng gue udah laper. gue benco banget kalo lagi pake behel gabisa makan nasi. emosi-_____-

Anyway , soal kemarin everything's alright, setelah marah nangis dan lain-lainnya gue langsung kembali seperti biasa terutama gue kemarin abis dari dokter dan abis itu jalan sama si eyang, asik sih tapi belom gue nikmatin karena gigi gue nyut nyutan ganti kawat sama tambah hook + gue gabisa makan sate padang. GUE NGIDAM SATE PADANG MEN ! -..-

Terus karena gue bosen dirumah mau sms audhie kania ganti hari main jadi kapan jangan sekarang gue menshuffle iTunes gue yang sudah benar kembali. Ngga sengaja gue menemukan lagu nya BIP - Cinta Tanpa Mata . pernah nonton film judulnya " i love you, om!" ? pernah? pernah? ngga? kalo pernah pasti tau deh ya si Rachel emang keren banget maininnya hahaha tapi kalau belum bisa dibeli DVD nya di toko dvd terdekat ;) *apa ini kenapa jadi promosi?

Liriknya gue suka bangetngetnget karena emang yagitulah alasannya hehe apalagi gue emang suka suaranya Ipank keren, dan kalo gue mau sok art, suaranya berkarakter. HAHAHA okeoke ini liriknya, kalau mau lagunya greet gue di msn aja ntar gue kasih deh :D

Walau kau tak kumiliki

Seperti disaat ini

Tapi hatiku takkan menyesali.

Hingga aku pun tak mau

Lewati hari tanpamu

Walau tiada orang yang setuju.

Reff:

Cinta memang tanpa mata

Hebatnya Cinta....

Membutakan siapa saja

Memang cinta , tak perduli

Semuanya bisa, bisa saja jatuh cinta

Selama kau, memahami

Selama kau, menikmati

Perbedaan takkan bisa halangi

Bersama dengan dirimu,

Kurasa tetap bahagia,

Walau lebih banyak pahitnya :'(

back to Reff

*Hanya padamu, Hanya untukmu

Terlanjur sudah ku berikan hatiku

Hanya padamu, Hanya untukmu

Terlanjur sudah ku serahkan~ Semua cintaku~

back to Reff

in a relationship

HOLD. sebelum berfikiran jelek mendingan baca dulu postingan gue -.-

Ini bukan tentang gue baru ditanya "baby, mau ngga kamu jadi pacar aku?"

BUKAN~ (walau gue mengharap iya karena tanggalnya bagus 20012010)

Tapi ini soal apa ya , soal pandangan gue ke arah situ.

Bagi beberapa orang yang tau soal gue kenapa dari desember kemarin sampai detik ini, pasti ngerti

Bukannya apa apa, gue agak bingung memang menjelaskannya.

Mungkin apa ya trauma kali ya.

Atau untuk pertama kalinya gue menemukan rasa lelah itu.

Biasanya sih gue panggil dia si titik batas akhir.

Kalau gue menasehati teman teman gue ya "itu lo udah sampe titik akhir kali, yauda itu terserah lo kok mau gimana blablablabla"

Tapi disaat gue yang menghadapinya. Gue kelimpungan.

Gue ngga tau harus gimana. Gue ngga mau pergi, maunya 'disini'

(sumpah egois lu pin najis pret cueh)

Memang gue egois nya tinggi,

Belum lagi gue suka kelabakan padahal gue tau sendiri gimana cara mengatasinya

Tapi gue ga bisa :'(

Sampai kadang gue fikir, gue ngalamin trauma yang cukup parah.

Lebay ya menurut bloggers? menurut saya ngga.

Gue ngalamin yang namanya cape-nangis-stres-cowo baru-seneng-nangis ga keitung.

Tapi gatau kenapa sekarang gue bener bener cape.

Kalo katanya si michael bubble :

" i broken my heart so many times i stop keeping track "

Ya emang ngga gitu banget cuman ya iya gue seperti menutup diri secara ngga langsung

Biasanya orang nanya sampe bingung kok ini anak cepet amat sih sembuh patah hatinya?

Sekarang juga pada kaget kenapa gue ga punya gebetan baru apalah blah blah nya itu

Sebenernya kalo gue mau jujur gue juga cape banget kaya gini, bosen.

Iri deh rasanya kalo ujan temen2 gue pada pacaran di balkon, pagi pagi pada telfonan 'eh kamu jangan cabut ya awas loh sayang wiwiwi'

Atau ngga kaya si ade rama sama kartini, suap suapan dikelas. IRI COY IRI-,,-

Tapi di satu sisi gue belum siap, belum apa ya belum mau menerima perubahan baru

Even itu positif buat gue. Aneh kan aneh? iya gue juga bingung kenapa gitu.

Well, jujur aja gue ngga pernah menolak kesempatan, Nita juga pernah mencoba.

Tapi gue gatau kenapa no interest, mau dia anak band mana, mau sekolah dimana,

Ngga ngerti juga gue kenapa. (walau anak band tertentu sangat gue harapkan)

Hem yasudahlah ya, doakan saja gue akan menemukan cowok baru yang bisa bikin gue balik kaya dulu lagi, agak bosen juga hidup cuman buat belajar begini hahaha parah deh ya gue -,-

The Rose

tau ngga dia siapa? she's Janis Joplin, hmmm kalo kata temen kaka gue dia itu cewe yang nyanyi in lagu blues terus suaranya kaya kuntilanak serem gitu serek serek gimanaaaaaaaaaa gitu , nah gue penasaran tuh, terus akhirnya iseng gue download lagunya, taunya enak enak semua, bener bener menyentuh :"( apalagi lagunya yang ini, gue sukaaaaaaa banget :

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, it's only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong

Just remember, in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lie the seed, that with the sun's love
In the spring, becomes the rose

I'm sorry.

" I can honestly say, You've been on my mind, Since I woke up today, up today. I woke up this morning, And played our song, And through my tears I sang along, I picked up the phone and than, Put it down, 'cause I know I'm wasting my time, And I don't mind, But the one thing I wish I'd forget, A memory I want to forget, is goodbye "

hmmm ya pada tau kan lyrics itu lagunya miley yang goodbye?

nah iya tuh gue agak stres kalo denger lagu itu.

bukan apa apa, itu yang gue lakuin sepanjang hari , setiap menit, detik itu yang gue lakuin, sakit men rasanya~

gue tau gue salah oh uouo dan lagi gue udah ngga pernah ngepost nyindir atau apa kan?

nah sekarang gue cuma mau BICARA, bukan ingin MENCELA.

Kalau setiap pagi gue gapapa seneng seneng aja

Gue mendengarkan paramore yang ignorance , ashley tisdale yang Its alright it's okay

Tapi kalau malem udah dateng, gausah malam, pas pulang sekolah, apa yang gue nyanyiin?

" Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry, Call I'm desperate for your voice, Listening to the song we used to sing "

Stres? haha entahlah.

Gue ngga mau berfikir macam macam.

Gue cuman manusia biasa aja kok.

Kalau gue berlebihan dalam postingan gue,

Maaf - maaf aja ya, gue memang begini.

Terima atau pergi gausah balik balik lagi.

(tiba tiba orangnya pergi)

OKE OKE nyesel gue maaf maaf!

" If you just realize what I just realized, I try to say goodbye and I choke , I try to walk away and I stumble, Though I try to hide it it's clear, My world crumbles when you are not near "

See? I'm SORRY :(

Sebel emang kalo melihat lo menyindir atau apa

Tapi lo masih ngga ngasih gue kesempatan buat menjelaskan

Lo nya malah pergi gitu aja T.T

You know what gue merindu jadinya kalau denger lagu yang kita nyanyiin dan itu bikin sebel

Kenapa bikin gue sebel?

Karna gue keingetan sama lo dan gue jadi Kangen T.T

Belom lagi kalau buka Plurk

YaAllah ampun deh ampun sebel kalo di inget lagi :(

" I missed the times that we almost shared, At least in my dreams, Just let me take my time and reminisce, I miss the times that we never had, What happened to us we were almost there, I cannot believe I let you go, And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel, you're my everything yes its true, how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say :'(((((( "

Kangen sumpah kalo lagi sendirian kaya gini,

Hujan, sore-sore mandang list msn gue,

Kalau udah maleman terus gue sendirian yang masih bangun,

Telfonan deh.

Maaf ya kalo gue masih nulis kaya gini,

Sekali lagi gue ingetin ke elo : gue cuman MENGUNGKAPKAN, ngga MENCELA sama sekali.

Maaf, Maaf, dan Maaf.

Walaupun sejuta maaf juga ngga akan ngerubah keadaan,

Seenggaknya gue mencoba. Buat orang yang harga dirinya tinggi, cukup baik kan untuk USAHA?

Ya kan, teman ? :'(

senyum obat awet muda

yoyoyoyo bloggy! saya senang sekali karena beberapa hari ini puas banget gue bermain ketawa ngakak ngakak :P recentnya cekidot :

sabtu:

citos seharian sama wina kemal gisma udin, woooo asik banget ketawa tawa , tapi gue lihat si kemal dari hari kehari makin kurang ajar ini mention gue penuh sama sindirannya dia, masa iya gue dibilang algojo rank #6 , koruptor. kampreeeeeeeet-,,- woh tapi sayang banget ngga ada fotonya hehehe jadi ngga lengkap deh :P

minggu:

nothing special cuma gue sama amel makan di ka ep ci pe pe abis itu kita lihat ada anak yg ulang tahun, rafli apa siapa gitu namanya, terus ada senamnya gitu bikin ngakak deh ada HALO! halo halo halo kawan kawan semua~ wakakakak terus abis itu ya mc nya bikin ngakak lagi, ngomong: gajah gajah gajah, ayam ayam ayam HAHAHAHAH sumpah ngakak gue, belom lagi gue bikin video aib teerus tetep dong ada fotonya :

kita lucu kaaaaaaaan :) awkawkawk itu masih yang bagus yg aib ga gue masukin z

senin:

nothing funny tapi gue ketawa terus sama amel gara gara senam ka ep ci awkawkawk terus ya sorenya talking something sama bella :) iklas itu baik loh, banyak iklas siapa tau bisa awet muda, banyak senyum apalagi :))

by the way , doakan ya sekolah gue sukses bikin event futsal, buat sekolah yang diundang dateng ya :) apa lagi PUTCY hihi mau lihaaaaaaaat kangen sekali saya :$

gue-gagal.

barusan gue kehujanan, dereeeeeeeeees banget, sampe banjir sekolah gue.

Akhirnya gue , wina , rifky, dan lain lain pulang lewat depsos.

Maaf ya siska , gue ngga maksud loh kaya tadi duh gue gaenak deh-_-

Terus gue mendengar sesuatu , yang agak janggal difikiran gue.

Gue merasa gagal untuk semuanya.

Gue gagal jadi anak yang baik.

Gue gagal jadi temen yang baik.

Gue gagal jadi adik yang baik.

Gue gagal jadi sahabat yang baik.

Gue gagal jadi gebetan yang baik.

Gue gagal jadi pacar yang baik.

Gue gatau gue bisa apa :"(

Apa tujuan gue disini, apa yang bisa gue lakuin untuk orang lain?

Maafin gue ga bisa nyegah lo untuk apa apa, maafin gue buat semuanya.

Maaf, gue marah karna gue mau lo kembali.

Maaf kalau cara gue salah.

Maaf gue ngga bisa jadi temen yang mendukung lo untuk yang satu ini.

Mendukung lo akan menambah rasa sesal gue nanti.

Please, maafin gue, gue ngga akan bisa baik baik aja kehilangan elo kaya gini.

Sakit rasanya buat gue tau elo kenapa kenapa.

Gue udah kehilangan orang yang sangat berarti buat gue,

Tempat gue bergantung di hidup gue,

Makanya gue gamau kehilangan elo lagi.

Gue tau kita ngga baik dan selaras untuk beberapa hal.

Gue maafin kejadian kemarin kalau memang itu cukup berarti untuk buat elo berhenti.

Tapi please, please........

Jangan buat gue ngga berarti jadi temen lo.

Gue memang ngga bisa jadi temen atau sahabat yang baik dimata lo.

Tapi gue kaya gini karna gue sayang sama lo.

Ngerti dong :"( tolong :'((

Maafin gue selama ini ya, maaf.

Semoga lo cepet sadar, ngga sampe kearah sana, karna.....

Gue akan merasa menyesal telah gagal ngejaga temen gue sendiri,

Sakit buat gue kehilangan temen kaya gini.

Gue cape harus kaya gini, lo pikir enak marah-marah kaya gini?

NGGA! :'(

Jadi tolong, kembali, jadi lo yang dulu lagi, elo yang kita kenal :'(

masuk sekolah + akuntansi = mual-mual

halo blogger! gue sudah resmi masuk sekolah, malas sekali , lelah, karna gue kebiasaan bangun malam dan tidur subuh -,- jadinya gue akan sangat mengantuk banget di kelas, dan terbukti dikelas ekonomi.

jadi setelah melewati hari yang cukup berat (tas gue isinya LKS, bekel, buku paket duhelah banyak-_-) pelajaran terakhir gue adalah e-ko-no-mi . tau kan pelajaran yg ngajarin kita soal DUIT, MONEY?? nah iya itu tuh, terus akhirnya gue duduk kan. abis ngakak soal tory cheese cracker gara-gara amel , gue duduk dikelas. ngga tau karna abis maen colek-colekan sama piembul di kantin gue kok mual mendadak ya. terus gue diem kan , ngga lama si nyai masuk.

dia jelasin tuh "aktifa = pasiva blablablabla" dan abis itu gue istirahat sebentar , sekitar 10 menit gue pules, sangat pulas gue tertidur dikelas, lalu kebangun, mungkin karna panasnya melebihi suhu matahari (apasih lebeh) terus bangun-bangun kening gue berpeluh (apa banget bahasa gue) terus gue ngipas-ngipas, ngelirik jam gue udah jam 14.15 , ah bentar lagi nih bentar lagi, teurs ga lama gue pengen banget nidurin buku akun gue, pengen banget, rasanya lebih enak dari pada bantal (lebeh) taunya pas mau mejamin mata lagi gue mendengar bel pulang. YEAY PULANG

terus gue ga bisa pulang langsung soalnya gue mesti nungguin agam kan gue butuh undangan buat pribadi supaya bisa masuk ke event sekolah kita~ tapi pas lihat namanya 'sakova' gue agak malas memberikan undangan itu ke anak pribadi, gue takut diketawain-_- tapi ya jujur aja, this is the last way, the only way, tapi kalau memang ngga berhasil yasudah gue pasrah-,-

terus sampe rumah gue kan dianterin gandi , gatau kenapa rasanya kepala gue pusing banget, terus berat banget badan gue (oh emnag berat) pas sampe rumah bawaannya mau muntah, gue mual mual -,- gue juga gatau gue ini kenapa, gue minum air minum yg banyak terus oleh-oleh dari mba melsa sudah di rumah, tapi gue ga perduli. gue kenapa mual mual huuuu

sekarang gue terjebak di ranjang menahan rasa muntah , tapi gue masih mual mual duh gue kenapa nih ? PUTCY BILANG MAMA KU KAU AKAN MENIKAHI KUUUUU (lebeh) -_-

formspring.me

http://www.formspring.me/pinia

ask me anything, maybe i'll answer it honestly :P

January's video

You told me
there's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

[Chorus]
It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry
Alright, Ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burnt down
I'm stronger now
Alright , Ok
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrait a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

[Chorus]

Don't waist you fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's Way to late
I'm closing the door

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Friday, March 26, 2010

Click me Click me !!

Posted by pinia agista at Friday, March 26, 2010 2 comments

CLICK ME!

come and see my new ginia's :)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The glass and me.

Posted by pinia agista at Tuesday, March 23, 2010 2 comments

Once i broke a glass , there were cracks in the glass

I cried and starring at the glass

But I have decided to destroy it

Because i just don't want have a memories of it

I'm doing this for my self, protecting my self

I'm sorry if that hurt you

But once there was a crack then the glass would not be the same again.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

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Friday, March 19, 2010

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-Janis Joplin

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

March wish

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halo. aduh maaf ya emang terlambat banget-_-

tapi gue mau mengungkapkan harapan kecil gue di bulan maret :

semoga long weekend dan holiday ini bisa gue habiskan sama orang yang gue sayang
gue berharap gue ngga bimbang lagi, bisa ngambil keputusan yang benar
dan, semoga.............. kebahagiaan yang gue rasain sekarang ngga berenti sampai bulan ini aja

happy long weekend guys , semoga anak kelas 12 diberkahi ujiannya, amin :')

Saturday, March 13, 2010

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hey. kamu yang disana.

aku cuma mau bilang.

Gue - Cuman - Mau - Di - DENGAR

Friday, March 12, 2010

march video's :D

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Thursday, March 11, 2010

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Only when we want is not

A compromise

I'll be pouring tears

Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing

There can only be one

Friends, lovers, or nothing

We'll never be an in-between

So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"

Cause your two drinks in

But in the morning I will say

Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into

The jealous game

The streets will flood

With blood of those who felt the same

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

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Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't

Let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Posted by pinia agista at Wednesday, March 10, 2010 0 comments

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you

Saturday, March 6, 2010

just, another day.

Posted by pinia agista at Saturday, March 06, 2010 0 comments

halo halo saya baru pulang hari ini dari citos dari my lovely S, today kita nonton :

yep dan gue sama my baby S ft issoi , tasha dan puput temannya. sebenernya gue ketemu sama feny tapi ternyata......kita tidak tegur sapa :

feny says:

*adaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. yg lg nelpon bukan sih?

*waktu gue masuk, ada yg pake baju putih terus lg nelpon blg "iya ma ini di citos"

*gue pake baju putih +kacamata lg nungguin tmn gue di toilet plg pojok

*mau nyapa takut salah -,-

Pinia says:

*IYA

*ITU GUE-_____-

*........

*kayanya gue melihat elo

*tapi gue ngga ngeh

*..............

*jadi.....kita bertemu tanpa tegur sapa

*(lebay)

feny says:

*hahahahahhaha

*lain kali deh pin -..-

sumpah kocak banget apalagi omongannya yang paling gue suka : off their head! sama i need my piggy now! HUAHAHAHA sumpah lucu banget dan gue suka banget itu mehehe :3

oh ya, fotonya hari ini kurang memuaskan, si rince salah mencet jadilah foto box nya tatat -,- but yeah i love this day thankyou my S muchywuchy unyuuu :3

Thursday, March 4, 2010

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Who knows how long I've loved you

You know I love you still

Will I wait a lonely lifetime

If you want me to, I will.

For if I ever saw you

I didn't catch your name

But it never really mattered

I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever

Love you with all my heart

Love you whenever we're together

Love you when we're apart.

And when at last I find you

Your song will fill the air

Sing it loud so I can hear you

Make it easy to be near you

For the things you do endear you to me

Oh, you know, I will

I will.

Blair Waldorf

Posted by pinia agista at Thursday, March 04, 2010 0 comments

halo halo teman blog tau dia kan ? tau kan? leighton meester ! yeah baby leighton meester adalah aktris yang gue banget rasanya, lucu ya dia mirip gue gitu ^,^ (skip)

oh! dan soal stylenya dia , walaupun ngga keren keren amat :

karena si arince sukanya sama serena, ya pas lah kita berdua juga completing each other, yagak rin? we're just like this :

Nah, ga sabar gue nungguin besok, soalnya B dan S udah lama ngga memakai quality time together nya bersama, See you there for alice in wonderland S!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

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When your feeling lost in the night,

When you feel your world’ just ain’t right,

Call on me, I will be waiting

Count on me, I wll be here

Anytime the times get too tough,

Anytime your best ain’t enough

I’ll be the one to mak it beter,

I’ll be there to protect you,

See you through,

I’ll be there and there is nothing

I won’t do

I will cross the ocean for you

I will go and bring you the moon

I will be your hero your strengh

Anything you need

I will be the sun in your sky

I will light your way for all time

Promise you, For you I will

Monday, March 1, 2010

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Is it wise enough to say

That I'm better off without you

Is it cool enough to fake

'cause all that I've been breathing is about you

Is it wise enough to flow (flowing down)

From the head until my toes

But somehow I don't really know

All that I've been doing is without you

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Way Back Into Love

Posted by pinia agista at Thursday, February 18, 2010 0 comments

ah gue terlihat hopeless ? entah lah man, gua baik baik saja sih sepertinya yang penting gue sudah tidak trauma lagi (sepertinya) dan gue sudah menemukan bahwa :

hidup menyenangkan disaat single, banyak teman yang sayang sama gue. kalau mereka ga ada, masih ada diri sendiri yang sayang sama gue.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

P.S : B, baca ya liriknya-,-

Monday, February 15, 2010

Valentine's day on 2010

Posted by pinia agista at Monday, February 15, 2010 0 comments

Hell-oow people ! happy valentine's and imlek ya people! bagi yang merayakan jangan lupa kasih gue angpao, gausah pake coklat juga gapapa hahahaha okay skip

Oh iya , buat opening awalnya kita mau kasih congratulation buat one of six girls yang sudah tidak single ladies lagi :

Congratulation askarina bintari 10-02-2010 ;)

semoga aja longlasting sama si pacar ngga putus dan doakan teman mu ini segera menyusul dan menyandang status in a relationship with . . . . . -.-'

Nori juga! ayo buruan susul arin! gue mendukung lo dan si calon koook ;) pokoknya yang mau jadian diantara kita ber-6 pasti didukung kok :D

sambil gosip segala macam akhirnya sejam baru berlalu , dan ASAL-KALIAN-TAU kita delivery mcd. mau tau apa aja? nih:

a. dua kentang goreng medium

b. dua double cheese burger

c. dua mcflurry milo

d. dua ..... gue lupa pokoknya minuman.

ho-oh gasampe sejam udah delivery mcd. bayangin gue aja mau muntah eh si nori malahan masih lapar-_______- saiko kan dia -,- pas pembayaran juga cengar cengir aja kerjaannya-,-

If valentine's day does exist for us, it means love. love means you, you means Nori Hesviandani , Askarina Bintari S, Aussie Aulia Siwi , Gladyza Putri Vanska, Ulul Azmi Handayani ♥♥♥♥

Saturday, February 13, 2010

February's video ;)

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Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Trauma

Posted by pinia agista at Tuesday, February 09, 2010 0 comments

-to the point-

Gue mau lari, gue ngga sanggup lagi

Gue mau udahan,

Gue mau hidup gue yang lama balik lagi.

Bahkan sebenernya gue ga tau mau nulis apa buat ngungkapin gue mau berhenti sekarang juga

Gue mau gue bisa milih memori yang ada di fikiran gue,

Soalnya gue tau

Kita bukan bulan dan bumi yang saling mengitari satu sama lain

Kita bukan api dan air yang bisa saling menguatkan atau mematikan

Kita juga bukan irama dan musik yang membuat diri kita lebih indah

Kita bukan prince princess fairy tale yang happily ever after

Tapi setelah gue fikir kita udah jaga jarak banget gini, kadang gue ngerasa

Gue seperti cinderella tanpa sepatu kaca

Gue seperti cuaca panas tanpa angin

Gue terlihat seperti bintang disiang hari tanpa sinar

Memang ngga terlalu penting tapi kalau ada lo everything's complete.

Gue butuh orang lain yang bisa nolongin gue dari ini.

Please ;(

Sunday, February 7, 2010

for an optimistic, i'm pretty pessimist

Posted by pinia agista at Sunday, February 07, 2010 0 comments

I blamed my self for everything happened

And when we're be separated , just remember

I'm here if you changing your mind

And i don't care if that day took a long time

Well maybe i'll wait.

For everything that happened between us, and everything might happen in future

-cusimia and fasiam

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Yeah, that was me.

Posted by pinia agista at Thursday, January 28, 2010 2 comments

Halo bloggy! aneh ya aneh judul gue? bodolah-_-

So today adalah si TGI-Friday so yeah "happy friday" people :DD

Mungkin ini salah satu post ngga bermutu gue, atau bisa dibilang isi blog gue emang ga bermutu-_-

Cuman gue lagi kepengen mengungkapkan apa yang gue rasain akhir akhir ini

Ya jujur aja, kalau dari lanjutan postingan in a relationship gue, masih kerasa banget sampe sekarang.

Jadi itu juga udah bukan masalah besar banget buat gue

I just keep going and didn't look back at all karena yaaaa buat apa menengok ke masa masa yang bikin sedih, apalah.

Tapi ya yang namanya kenangan itu kan enaknya ya dikenang

Pas gue udah nikah terus punya anak ntar cerita deh:

"mama tuh dulu blablabla makanya kamu tuh kan udah gede jadinya blablabla"

Hea berasa iya aja gue jadi orangtua begitu-__-

Sekarang juga gue tinggal jalanin aja deh tuh apa yang gue ngerasa ngga pas di hidup gue

Mau dari bagian yang mana juga tetep gue harus jalanin kan

Bersyukur aja apa yang dikasih sama Allah gue tinggal ngejalanin apa yang gue bisa aja

Gue gatau kenapa jadi dapet pencerahan kaya gini,

Setelah semalem gue memutuskan buat meninggalkan apa yang gue jadikan beban selama ini

Gue lebih memilih bersyukur yang banyak, soalnya gue diselamatkan dari bahaya itu udah banyak banget

Emang gue belum tau kenapa gue diselamatkan dari begitu banyak bencana besar, salah satunya tsunami 2004 waktu itu

Padahal kalo dipikir pikir gue ga ada gunanya hidup cuman bikin dosa doang-.-

Yeah, kalo kata my baby norhes everything came for a reason :')

Jadi yasudah lah, pasti ada maksudnya kenapa gue dijauhkan dari apa yang bener bener gue inginkan.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby~

Posted by pinia agista at Sunday, January 24, 2010 0 comments

lucu kan lucu kan? hueheu gue mau kurus ah biar bisa nari kaya gitu(?) -_-'

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Cinta Tanpa Mata

Posted by pinia agista at Thursday, January 21, 2010 0 comments

Walau kau tak kumiliki

Seperti disaat ini

Tapi hatiku takkan menyesali.

Hingga aku pun tak mau

Lewati hari tanpamu

Walau tiada orang yang setuju.

Reff:

Cinta memang tanpa mata

Hebatnya Cinta....

Membutakan siapa saja

Memang cinta , tak perduli

Semuanya bisa, bisa saja jatuh cinta

Selama kau, memahami

Selama kau, menikmati

Perbedaan takkan bisa halangi

Bersama dengan dirimu,

Kurasa tetap bahagia,

Walau lebih banyak pahitnya :'(

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*Hanya padamu, Hanya untukmu

Terlanjur sudah ku berikan hatiku

Hanya padamu, Hanya untukmu

Terlanjur sudah ku serahkan~ Semua cintaku~

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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

in a relationship

Posted by pinia agista at Wednesday, January 20, 2010 0 comments